Have you been flossing?

Today I have a dentist appointment. So what everyone has dentist appointments, yes maybe some people are nervous where as others are fine with it and just carry on their day. Well when you have an anxiety disorder something like this thrown into the mix of my normal everyday routine it pretty much tragic. Preparation for this day started back in July when I made the appointment. I have canceled and rescheduled three times and finally have told myself you are going to this one. Last night I started mentally preparing myself ya know verbally saying " I'm nervous" and "I hope there's no cavities" to my family so they will calm me by saying you will be fine, however my husband in turn says well you haven't been in so long they are probably going to find a cavity. See though I have not been to the dentist in over 5 years I have never had a cavity or braces or any teeth problems. You would think I would love going to the dentist just to show of my mouth of perfection. Nope not at all whenever I am faced with any sort of doctor related things my first thoughts are..im going to literally poop my pants right there in the chair, I am going to pass out and then throw up all over the place, They are going to find some sort of mouth cancer or other horrible disease that will end up killing me in the weeks to come. Crazy? ya I know..So this is the morning in fact I have to be there in 30mins. To calm my anxiety the best way I can, I have made myself poop 3 times, and taken what I like to call poop pills so that there is no way I will have to poop during this appointment. I have also taken 1.5 klonopin to hopefully calm me down, I have pack a bag with everything I may need in  case I get stranded out there or do poop my pants I have extra clothes. Prayed to Jesus I don't die right there on the table brushed my teeth and flossed twice in hopes of a speedy exam. I think I am good to go now wish me luck. :)  My therapist is going to have a field day with this tonight.